the calendar seems to be staring at me, reaching out to me at this point of time.
'23' has never been anything significant to me in my life.
and so this still stands.
but this phony imagination of '23' is actually trying to reach out to me that it's just 3 weeks away from the end of school.
anyway, prelim's still ongoing and everyone in my tuition group seemed to be very very surprised.
2 entire weeks have past since the commencement of prelims and this is way to long, much like it's prolonging our agony with all the mugging and all the sleepless nights.

finally, i was able to dump the mugging aside and enjoy myself.
was out with sandra for lunch at orchard on friday after math paper 2.
and how fortunately, we were spotted by my parents.
ehh.. it's just platonic relationship between us.
not going into the details.

my saturday evening was 'interestingly' spent.
i actually went to the victoria theatre and became part of the audience of some... show... some tiger (thai-girl) show.
i swear i didnt wanna go but it's because my whole family's invited to go by the organisers.
anyway, i was like having this get-it-over-and-done-with kind of attitude before the show.
the trivial stuffs aside, i had really bad encounters during the show.
i was seated at the front row and those show is actually filled with 'entertainment values'.
not as in those transvestite strut their stuffs but they also do some interaction with the crowd.
so there was this really 200kg old man who cross dresses who had this bulging belly which is much much much worst than a pregnant lady's.
he (maybe she) came down and looked at me with his both eyes like...
he then walked over to me and wanted me to give him a kiss. &^@$*!@*&
i leaned back and shun but he came over nearer and placed his damned belly on mine and started moving! WTF!
the next part of the show the transvestite were doing the 'ketchup song' thingy and 2 ladies came down to the stage and invited me and another guy up to do the damned dance despite my profuse refusal.
'what to do? just too attractive lah. hahaha.'
seriously, it's just traumatising to me.
i'm seriously having an all-time-low libido now. wtf. haha.

actually after pondering away, the thought of them as disgusting creatures sort of fades away in a way or another.
it's not like i'm going to be one of them.
but they're just normal human beings and that the way they are oriented and the life they prefer to are just different from us.
i believe people should be more open towards such things and not just based on the idea that they're just 'abnormal' just because you compare it with your own beliefs.
afterall it boils down to conformity of the norms within the society.
it's just like the recent homosexual thing which became the hot topic in the parliament other than the cpf issue.
i know i'm a small fry and that i have no say in that issue.
i feel that the root of the problem is still the problem of conformity within the local society and that we are still not receptive enough.
and it's like the process of upbringing whereby people develop a certain values and principles which they uphold.
but in this changing world, we can no longer adopt ideas wholesail and we need flexibility.
im not taking sides but it's just my 2cents.
and it shouldn't be taken as anything against any race or religion.

with that said, i'm off to restore and salvage my low libido.
hahahaha.